Now is 2 in the morning...
My mind went
blank... total blank...
try to
crap for my assignment report...
but
unable to crap... =|
3.5k of words are required in this report... =_="
aih....
Actually this will be my
last assignment due next week and a
final year project due end of this month for my final
sem... after the final exam then I am officially a graduate... YES,
one more assignment, one more project and one more final exam to go... so nice rite...
BUT this pass few weeks I been worrying so much about graduating from my course. Since this month will be my 'official' final
last of the last of the last month studying in uni, there is so much fear in me.
People asked me how long more to go, I told them is my final sem...
yada yada yada... graduating end of this year...
yada yada yada...
HOW??? yeah HOW if I unable to graduate end of this year? how am I going to answer them... 'erm erm so and so, I need to extend my undergrad life till next semester because of some
yada yada yada situation'
Seriously speaking I am not saying this like what most people will said "aiya fail already
larh/die
larh/no hope" but end up getting
high distinction for their result (sorry if I offended any of you by reading this part, I don't mean it) .
I'm really really really worrying about graduating, because fear that I
unable to pass my project, I really mean what I said ok...
I was so clueless about project, I
don't event know what's going on with all the project coding,
so frustrating. Were planing to do
this that this that this that in the project initially... but now... only can
this and that ... most of the part that I suppose to contribute in the project for my team I unable to contribute it... I HATE programming... I can be good at solving computing problem but not in writing programs with all the
alien language codes.
Gosh!!! really so stressful especially knowing that it was my final month as a student in uni... wondering if I able to go through this phase or not... Seeing high school friends graduating and working now already, haih...the
peer pressure. So many thought, decision, doubt, fear and the list goes on in me. Going to
kaboom soon...
I guess at the end of the day I have to
tell/yell/shout to God, that I can't do all this alone by myself.
I'm really so...